PART 3 NOTES: ' '- denotes phone conversation

PART 4 NOTES: See if you had said it sucked you wouldn't have been subjected to more!

Thanks to zus for helping with the Brit speak! Okay zus, its your turn to post. <G>

PART 6 NOTES: This part includes what I believe a medical exam would be like for a male rape victim. If this is too tedious for you this part can be skipped. It is important for me personally to show that rape is not over after the act. I hope you all can bear with me and don't think this part sucks too bad. I cannot find any information so this exam is common sense, I apologize if I offend any real medical personnel in my pitiful attempt to recreate it. I realize Xander seems somewhat childlike but this too is a reality. The feeling of wanting to go back to a time when your Mom could kiss your boo-boos is valid. Sad isn't it? This is for all those victims out there. May it give you some peace. Also for my purposes Xander is 19. Barely a teen and barely an adult. And on the Hellmouth you are a minor till 21. Sorry, too hard to change it now. lol

PART 8 NOTES: Thanks to zus for making sure my Spike and Giles weren't utter rot! And thanks to Jericho for pointing out the tense problem. Hope I fixed it. I'll go hunting a beta for the next part. Well, unless this is the last. <G>

A/N: Hope you aren't disappointed in this part guys, its hard to do torture stuff.

PART 9 NOTES: As usual no real beta so hopefully the tenses are right. Kinda short folks, sorry. No zus for this one, hope Spike's okay. ::sniff sniff:: But thanks to Cimmer for giving it a quick once over to make sure it didn't suck. lol Thanks Cimmer!!!!!

Part Four

Unfortunately it wasn't as easy as Xander's quick statement seemed to make it. For one Spike noticed the phone was off the hook. He wondered if the Watcher had ever hung up.

"Wait whelp, I don't think this is a phone type conversation. Don't want to give Rupert a heart attack then be too far away to watch, " he ended with a Spike smirk. He may be cuddly for his Xander but he was still the Big Bad.

Not to mention a little distracting wouldn't hurt the whelp.

"Spike, the G-Man is like my father. That's evil! Oh yeah, you ARE evil.Still, I don't understand why I have to talk to Giles. I am so not talking to the girls."

"Luv, you have to talk to the Watcher because he is like a dad to you. Much as I don't like it, you're gonna need him. And you don't have to tell anyone else. At least not right away." Spike leered. "Of course I am evil pet, I'm a vampire! But I won't hurt you none luv, you can take my word on it. Now come on, Rupert's waiting." Spike quickly ushers Xander out the door before he can process that last statement. Since Xander is arguing about telling Giles, he should have no idea what is going on. After all the fuss about Xander needling to talk, Spike is not gonna confess the Watcher might already know. Might?! If Spike was Giles and a known evil-albeit chipped-master vamp had found something so startling he dropped the phone he was holding, he would have eavesdropped too. Especially since the Big Bad vampire was with Xander. No, he didn't blame the Watcher. It might make things easier in the long run. Less time explaining left more time to get Xander to a doctor before he had a chance to really wig out.

With that in mind he exuded a sense of power, a sort of-Don't mess with a Master Vampire's pet- as they walked to Giles'. Xander was lost in his own thoughts and silent. But he was holding Spike's hand and for that little gesture Spike could swear his heart gave one short beat. It was miracle night on the Hellmouth. The couple made it to the Watcher's without meeting humans much less demons. Spike was smug that the Big Bad still had it. Of course, it could have just been an unusually quiet night too. Xander was not in any condition to appreciate the quiet night. He had a few demons of his own.

~Spike cares about me? Me, Xander Harris, the donut-boy. But he said he wouldn't hurt me even without the chip. Of course, evil soulless demon, he could be lying. He's got to be lying. He's holding my hand though. That's something nice. And its making me feel...safe. I feel safe with Spike. Isn't that a scary thought! Okay, so he's being a friend. I can handle that. Sure need one right about now. Ulp. I have to tell Giles. Oh God, I don't think I can do this. How do I get myself into these situations? And I don't need to see a doctor. I mean okay, my ass does hurt a bit but that's to beexpected when a guy tries to shove his limp-yes I can tell the difference-dick in your ass! Some pain is expected. I don't need a stupid medical expert to give me an official name for why I have a sore butt! No... we're here. Shit, shit, shit! We are at the G-Man's front door.~

Xander stops and Spike is unexpectedly tugged backward when he fails to notice the whelp planting his feet.

"I can't do this Spike. Let's just go back home please? At least let me take a shower, change clothes..." Xander trails off.

"Luv, we've already discussed this. Remember? You have to talk to the Watcher and you can't clean up till you see the doc. Now do you really wanna set the bloody chip off when I drag you in whether you like it or not?

Show might be worth the headache."

Spike has a look on his face that Xander isn't sure he should push. It seems to say the Big Bad is at the end of his rope himself and would love for Xander to make him enact a cave vampire routine. Complete with girlish shrieks as Xander is carried over the vampire's shoulder. Perhaps a few manly vampire shrieks as well as the chip zaps Spike, but the look seems to say it will be worth it.

"You'll stay right Spike? I am so not doing this alone," Xander finally managed to get out.

"Oi pet, told you I was staying put. Now knock on the door like a good whelp."

Giles is standing right by the door, listening to all this. He has long stopped being astonished at the sounds of support and concern in Spike's voice. He almost opens the door before Xander knocks. Luckily he realizes that if he does this they'll know he's been listening the whole time. Now is not the time to start a trust issue.

"Spike, Xander, what brings you here at this ungodly hour?

Giles rubs imaginary sleep out of his eyes. If Xander was more aware he would realize Giles opened the door too fast to have been asleep.

"Well, come in, I haven't got all night!" Giles winces at the forced irritation in his tone but he mustn't be nice to Spike and make Xander suspicious. He sends a silent apology to the vampire. He really has been impressed with Spike's handling of the situation.

"Uh hi G-Man... If you were asleep we can come back later, " Xander says hopefully.

"No, no Xander. It must be important if you- Oh, bloody hell!

"Giles!?" Xander is so startled he actually says his name.

"I can't keep pretending. Now of all times there must be absolute truth and no secrets. I know what happened Xander. Spike phoned and told me." Well actually he had overheard but most of the truth was better than none.

"Is that true Spike?" he sees the truth in the vampire's eyes.

"Why did you bother with the pep talk if you were just gonna break your promise!? What about you caring about me!? Are you gonna go call the girls now and complete my humiliation? Oh my God Spike, you gave me your WORD!" Xander is furious and hurt.

"Actually luv, I crossed my fingers behind my back so technically I didn't break my-, " he cuts off at the look in Xander's eyes. Xander runs for Giles' bedroom and locks himself in.

~Stupid, you should have known better. Trust the evil soulless vampire and get what's left of your heart ripped out. I believed him! He said he cared! Bet that was an evil vampire lie too.~

"Well, that was a fortuitous beginning! Good show Spike, that went well."

Giles furiously cleaned his glasses as Spike gave Angel a run for his money in the brooding department. Both men were at a loss.

"Bloody Watcher, why'd you have to tell him? This is all your fault! Humans and their bloody desire to tell the absolute truth. Now how'm I supposed to calm him down? He's locked in your bleedin' room!" Spike continued his tirade, not seeing the danger signs in Giles. Giles was already furious and it wasn't going to take much before Ripper came out to play. How dare the vampire say Xander was upset because of the Watcher. Xander was one of his "children". He was looking after the boy before Spike even came to Sunnydale. After all, didn't Spike hit Xander over the head pre-chip? Giles had much more to lose than Spike!

Giles sits down in a chair by the bed and writes in his journal while he waits for the doctor. He has settled into a light doze himself by the time all three are rudely awakened by the doorbell.

"What's going on? Hey, how did Spike get in here?" Xander yawned sleepily then cuddled closer to his vampire. He wasn't awake enough to remember he was mad at Spike. Giles motioned for Spike to stay put. He would answer the door.

"Give him a few more minutes Spike. I need to talk to the doctor anyway." Giles exited the room, quietly shutting the door behind him. Once out of earshot he raced down the stairs quicker than dignity normally allowed, but he didn't want the doorbell to wake Xander again. Maybe dignity wasn't watching. Giles opened the door cautiously even though he had looked out the peephole and confirmed his visitor. This was the Hellmouth after all. He ushered the man inside and gestured for him to take a seat.

"Thank you for coming Daniel. I know this is not the normal type of house call. I just felt this person would feel more comfortable here than at your clinic. You do have everything you need? I don't want you to have to traumatize him twice if you forgot something and have to leave to get it. My apologies, that was rather stupid. I am sure you know what you are doing. You have to know, he is a minor and not actually my son. That won't be a problem will it?" Giles finished nervously. He has handled monsters of all descriptions but it is the human monster that still unnerves him.

"Relax Rupert, I know this isn't legal and my results won't hold up in court. You mentioned you weren't pressing charges. Since I know you I'm going to assume you are handling this personally and not ask any more. They can't get anything out of me if I don't know anything. Now let's get this over with. You mentioned the young man was a tad reluctant. I brought along a tranquilizer in case its needed." The doctor isn't finished when Giles interrupts.

"I hardly think sedating a rape victim just so he's unconscious when you examine his arse is necessary!" Giles was upset with a misconception, perhaps he will give the man time to explain before he rips his head off.

"Rupert! Its a trank, it will just relax him a little, not make him paralyzed and comatose. He will still know what's going on, he will just feel removed from the reality a little bit. Finally, I said I have it in case its needed, this could be a moot point. Now can we get on with this? I am no more fond of these than I am sure your young man is, " Daniel finished with a snap of his overfull doctor's bad and gestured for Giles to lead the way.

"Sp-pike? I know I'm supposed to be mad at you but can I be scared, get cuddled right now, then be mad later? I guess I shouldn't be so mad since I don't have to explain the whole awkward thing to Giles after all. Do I still have to see a doctor?"

"Luv, you can be as scared as you please. Told you I'm staying put and I'll be here if you're mad or not. Pet, Giles phoned a bloke he knows and the doctor is here now." He stops to address the sudden panic in Xander's eyes.

"Now? He's here?! But why? Is he gonna take me to his clinic? But you and the G-Man could have driven me. Why is he here!?" Xander is distraught, he thought he would have time to talk his way out of this.

"Shhh pet, the Watcher wanted to get it over with and thought you would feel better at his house rather than a cold exam room. Don't you want to get it over with and done luv?" Spike smoothes his hand over Xander's hair. This petting thing is getting addicting.

"No Spike, I just want my life to go back to the way it was. And I want to have a choice again of who touches my ass! But since neither of those seem to be an option you will excuse me for wanting to throw a very childish tantrum!!!" Xander finishes with a near scream.

The door opens just in time for Giles and the newcomer to hear the last. Giles wonders if he should have been so quick to refuse the tranquilizer.

"Well young man, I have never met anyone that had more right to throw one. If it will make you feel better go right ahead." The doctor's sudden proclamation startles the other three in the room. Giles finally recovers enough to approach Xander.

"Xander...I wasn't going to mention this but I am thinking you need the option. Daniel brought a tranquilizer. You will be able to move and be cognizant of everything going on around you but will feel less a part of it. Its up to you son. I was very sure it was not necessary but if you need it please don't hesitate to take it." Giles finished and sat down beside Xander. Xander looked helplessly at Spike. He didn't know what to do. He was terrified but he wasn't sure being drugged was a good thing.

"Spike, I can't do this. I just can't. Please don't make me." Xander bursts into manly tears again.

"Give us a mo please Watcher, " Spike showed Giles and the doctor to the door. He caught a last worried look from Giles and they were gone.

"Okay luv, take a few deep breaths and relax. You know this is going to happen. You know you will not be left alone." Spike starts the petting all over again. Who needs a tranquilizer when you have your very own vampire?

Xander's breathing was approaching hysteria when he started the deep breathing. Now he's scared but not ready to bolt. Whatever happens, Spike will be there.

"Well Rupert, you didn't warn me about THAT!"

"Warn you about what Daniel?"

"Warn me that William the Bloody was the mate of your boy."

"Xander is not Spike's mate. Yes I admit I did notice he loves him but mates?"

Daniel shrugs, "So do you suppose he can calm him down? I really don't want the vampire attacking me if your Xander gets hysterical again. Not that I am saying the boy is over-reacting. I just don't want to get bit tonight."

"No worry there Daniel. Spike has a chip, he can't harm humans. I do wish he would hurry up and tell us its okay to come in." Giles looks up the stairs wearily, willing the door to open.

Spike notices Xander's breathing ease and sighs in relief. Maybe its time to get the other two men.

"All right luv, its time. Keep taking deep breaths. You still want me to tell you if you get the shot?" Spike never stopped petting his human.

"I-I don't know. I just want to pull the covers over my head and pretend I'm not here. I just don't think I can do this." Xander's voice is full of pain and terror but he trusts Spike.

"Got it pet, I don't think you can do this without it. Gonna go tell the doc." Spike gets up to leave and is grabbed by Xander.

"Don't leave me please!" Xander is sobbing once again. Spike curses and drags the unhappy boy with him.

Giles looks up at the sound of a door opening and catches sight of a white-faced Xander behind Spike.

"Right then, let's do it."

Daniel grabs his bag and follows Giles up the stairs.

"Whelp's right scared, he's gonna need the stuff." Xander nods but doesn't say anything.

"Very well, I understand." Daniel gets a pre-filled syringe out of his bag.

"Roll up his sleeve please. Rupert, why don't you sit in the chair by the bed and hold his other hand? There, you can never have too much support young man. I hope you realize how great these friends of yours are. I've known Rupert for years and I have heard of the reputation of William the Bloody." He keeps Xander occupied with inane chatter and the youth is too distracted to feel the pinprick when it comes.

"All done, now lay back, hold your vampire, and think calm thoughts. This is fairly fast-acting. You might feel a bit woozy but it shouldn't knock you out." He catches the worried look. "Hey, if you go to sleep we'll wait. I won't touch you while you are out unless you would prefer-"

Quick head shake.

"I didn't think so." He gives Xander a friendly smile and sits down in a chair by Giles. He watches as Spike gathers up the boy and strokes his hair in a motion reminiscent of petting. Well, whatever works. Xander grows increasingly limp. Daniel is briefly worried he might go to sleep after all but his eyes remain open. Spike hears Xander's heartbeat slow as much as its going to.

"Pet, you still with us?" Xander takes such a long time nodding they wonder if he really moved. "Ready luv?" Xander just blinks blankly and Spike snorts. "Right, not ready, never ready, got that. Okay doc, do your stuff."

Daniel is not about to undress Xander with Spike in the room. He likes his arms attached. He briefly contemplates asking Rupert but the request dies unsaid when he sees him in the same chair, clutching Xander's hand like a lifeline.

"Okay, Spike is it? I need you to undress him completely. I don't think he's capable of that right now." Daniel says this prepared to lose his life if the vampire goes off on him. Spike just quietly complies. He will do nothing to upset Xander.

Daniel gulps, "Now roll him on his stomach please." He puts his gloves on and applies a bit of K-Y Jelly to his index finger. He lays the other hand on Xander's back.

"Xander, I am going to examine you now. It will feel a bit uncomfortable but it shouldn't hurt. You let us know immediately if it does." The skin under his hand rippled a little but other than that shiver he didn't protest. "Spike, take his other hand. If he squeezes you let me know."

Spike simply nods in acknowledgement. Daniel takes a deep breath and gently parts Xander's butt cheeks. First he checks for any tears on the anus itself. He feels lucky to only find a few and none that need stitches. The youth is sobbing but showing no signs of resistance. Its as he said, Xander is fully conscious, just really relaxed. One more deep breath later he inserts the finger completely in the tiny hole. Xander's breath hitches briefly then he continues sobbing. Daniel strokes his back gently.

"Almost done with the bad part, just hang in there."

Xander nods and buries his face in the pillow. Daniel twists the finger completely around to check the walls of the rectum and Xander squirms.

"Does that hurt Xander?"

Head shake.

"You're sure?"

More head shakes.

"No pain receptors in here so the pain you are not feeling is from those little tears. Good, I'm all done with the bad parts."

Xander looks up incredulous.

"I told you I didn't like that part either. Ready to finish?"

Xander nods and Daniel begins a painstaking head to toe search for injuries. It seems to take forever and Giles falls asleep in his chair. Xander soon follows. Finally he is done and asks Spike to draw Xander a bath. While Spike is gone he quickly draws a tube of blood to test and notes approvingly that the youth is so tired he doesn't even twitch at being poked once again. Spike enters the room once again and Daniel asks him a curious question.

"Now Spike, I could take this blood back to my lab and process it in a couple of days but I understand you can tell me if there is anything in it just by tasting it? If you do this will it harm you if there is anything wrong?"

Spike looks up astonished.

"Never been used for that purpose mate, but it should work. Wouldn't hurt me." Daniel gives him the vial and Spike downs it. The flavors of innocence mixed with terror and despair make Spike want to spit it right back out. That used to be his favorite taste. Not when its Xander's.

"Blood's fine, doc." Spike surreptitiously wipes his mouth with the sheet on the bed. Good thing Giles is still asleep.

"Okay, the bad news. He has several small tears in his anal ring. They will heal but he's gonna be sore for a bit. I have some cream for that and he will probably need help applying it. The good news is he was right about the person not completing the penetration. There is very little damage and what there is will heal on its own. I will leave the cream with you along with some herbs you can sprinkle in his bath water. I would advise a normal diet but he should avoid the spicy stuff for a week. No showers, bathing only. I will be back to check on him next week." Daniel leaves the instructions and the job of bathing a dozing Xander with Spike.

The vampire shrugs, picks up his precious human, and heads into the bathroom. Sitting on the toilet he takes his Docs off and steps fully clothed into the bath. He doesn't want to terrify Xander when he wakes up in a bathtub with a naked male vampire. Sprinkling the medicine in the water he settles Xander against his chest and falls asleep with his nose buried in his mate's hair. He has time for one brief moment of shock at that last thought and then he is asleep too.

Xander woke up aware of two things. One that he was sitting in a bathtub full of now cold water and two, there was a fully clothed vampire cuddling him. Still feeling some lassitude from the medication and relieved the really bad part was over he got a wicked look in his eyes. Picking up the cup Spike used to wash his hair he filled it with the cold water and proceeded to pour it on his vampire's head.

"Soddin Hell! Are we being attacked?!" Spike cut off when he heard Xander snickering. He was too happy seeing his mate laugh to actually be mad. He waited until Xander wasn't looking and gave him a taste of his own medicine.

Giles woke up to the sounds of a water fight in his bathroom. He got out of his chair so fast he tipped it over. Ignoring the chair he ran into the bathroom.

"Now see here gentleman, cease that!" Too bad he has a fluffy bathmat. One shoe crossed the mat just fine but the other caught. The Spike and Xander water show was ended abruptly when a very proper English man landed ass over tea kettle in the bathtub. This took care of most of the rest of the water left in the tub and gave Xander a more intimate look at Giles's butt than he ever wanted. Spike was too busy moaning in pain as his bits were squished to appreciate the humor of Giles' pratfall. Giles scrambled out of the bathtub, trying not to place his hands in inappropriate places in the process. This achieved, he started cleaning his glasses only to realize his shirt was wet.

"Just bloody wonderful!"

"G-Man?" Xander's emotions are so very fragile and he is worried that Giles is mad at him.

Spike thanks vampire healing for his quick recovery and comforts his Xander.

"Its all right luv, Watcher's not mad, " he says as he lifts Xander out of the tub and helps him into the robe Giles is holding.

"Right Rupes?" Spike glares, the Watcher had better say yes.

"What!? Oh. Oh! Certainly not Xander. I was just reacting to the situation. I'm not mad or even upset with you." Giles gently unfolds him in a very unexpected hug. Both pull away embarrassed but not sorry.

"Right then luv, let's get you dry n' dressed. Does your bum hurt?"

Xander looks at Spike, clueless. "My what?!"

"Your ass whelp, does your arse hurt?" Spike looks a bit exasperated. Tip-toeing around a hurting human is difficult for the normally snarky blonde. He will do anything for his mate but he can only be so nice for so long.

"No Spike, not right now." Xander flushes with embarrassment. It seems lately that everyone around him is concentrating on his butt. Before this he didn't think all that much about it.

"Let's go then luv, don't want you getting chilled." Spike leads Xander out of the bathroom leaving a frustrated Giles still staring at his glasses and wet shirt.

"Rupes, just use a dry towel!" Spike shouts over his shoulder.

"I assure you I am perfectly capable of realizing that Spike." Giles says dryly.

Spike snorts and sits Xander on the bed, his manner changing instantly.

"Let Spike dry you off Pet. Water got a bit chilly while you napped." He takes a big fluffy towel and thoroughly dries Xander, avoiding any private bits. Now that the medication is wearing off Xander is trembling with reaction.

"Oh God Spike, I hated it. It felt like it was happening all over again. A second rape. I'm tired of having people's hands in my ass! I never want that again. I have had more people looking at my bare butt in the last couple of days than in the last 19 years. I am so glad its over." Xander leans forward and hugs his vampire.

"I know I haven't been very nice to you Spike. But after Angel offered me to you as a snack then you hit me over the head, well, I just didn't think I was more to you than food. But then I was ra-then this happened and you have been there every step of the way. I guess what I am trying to say is I'm sorry for before and thank you for not holding it against me. I don't know what you are to me yet. I am still hurting. But I know I always want you around. You give me sympathy and respect my feelings but if there's something necessary to do you don't hesitate to make me go through with it. Then you are there for me when I do. I'm not saying that's my last tantrum but I can count on you to do what's best for me whether I want you to or not. And besides, I have to keep you. You pet nice, " patented Xander grin a little weaker but still there.

"Soddin Hell, I don't pe-" Spike breaks off as he realizes he is indeed petting Xander again.

"To borrow a Giles expression; 'Yes, quite'". Xander just looks at Spike. His vampire. He has his very own vampire! Can I keep him Ma, he followed me home!

"Cheeky git, " but its said with affection. "Luv, I have an errand to run. I want you to stay here with the Watcher. I'll be back." Spike pulls the covers up to Xander's chin. "I want you to eat." Spike glares at Xander and he leaves his protest unvoiced. "You will eat Pet. We'll have words when I get back if you don't."

"Yeah well, chipped vampire, what are you gonna do? Glare me into submission?" Xander snickers and Spike has to hide his delight at hearing him joke again. He's supposed to be stern with him, not think its cute for Xander to talk back to the Master Vampire.

"Laugh all you want whelp, I'm leavin' you with Giles and he isn't chipped." Spike gives one last smirk and leaves the room with a swirl of his duster. He and Giles exchange a knowing look as he heads out the door.

"Make sure he eats Watcher. I will be back."

"I know how to take care of a 19 year old boy Spike. One of us has to stay with him. Get in a few for me." Giles ends with a curiously Spike-like smirk and hands something to Spike for him to stash in his duster.

"Aye... Ripper, will do." Spike puts the package in his coat and leaves his Xander in Giles capable care.

"Remember Spike, you will only have one hour."

"It'll be enough." Spike leaves quickly, he has a lot to do before morning.

~Josh huh? That's the arse wipe's name. Well Josh, did you know vampires are real?~

Spike gives an evil laugh that would have made Giles cringe and HE knows Spike is chipped. But Spike can't harm humans...right?

Spike lopes down the dark streets. He was wishing on the one hand that he would run into something nasty and get rid of a little pent up aggression. But he also doesn't have all night to play. Sighing in disappointment he avoids all trouble on his way. The Watcher's house is not far from Xander's. Its not even enough effort to wind him. He approaches the house next door to Xander's and phase one has begun. He knocks on the door. A young man with dark brown hair and chocolate eyes answers, dressed only in pajama bottoms.

"Yes? Its kind of late for salesmen honey, " the man replies.

"Sorry to bother you at this hour sir but my mate was attacked and I need to call the police. Would you mind terribly if I used your phone?" Spike uses his Victorian manner of speech and a smile to gain access. Underneath the respectable exterior the vampire is itching to rip the mortal's throat out. If this doesn't work he'll have to catch this Josh outside his house. He's cursing that vampire invite quirk now more than ever. Then again, the stakes have never been higher: this is for Xander.

"Well Xander, what would you like to eat? I could order you a pizza." Giles coaxes the youth to eat his first food in two days. He should be starving.

"No thanks G-Man, not hungry." Xander's laying on his side facing away from Giles. His whole posture says leave me be. All he wants is his Spike back.

Giles sits down on the bed and rubs his back.

"Xander, Spike will be back. When he does I want you to have eaten this soup. I don't want to pour it down your throat but if it comes to that I shall." The soft statement has a much bigger impact than a bit of Ripper's idea of a threat. He's just so nice and matter of fact its scary.

"Threats G-Man? Not your usual style." Xander does not even bother to roll over.

"Oh no dear boy. There's no threat. That was a promise."

Xander finally rolls over and looks at the Watcher in shock. Whatever he sees in Giles' eyes causes him to silently sit up and take the tray Giles is holding.

"And don't call me that horrid name." He sits down beside the bed to make sure Xander eats.

"Oh dear! Do come in and you can use our phone. Does your mate need any help?" He looks out into the night as if the other man is just laying on the ground somewhere. He's not overly bright.

"Wha? Oh no, a friend is watching him for me. We just moved into a new flat and don't have a working phone. Do you live here... alone?" Spike sits down on the couch as Michael closes and locks the door.

"Oh no, I live with my lover Josh. I just love your accent, he will die to meet you! I know what you mean about the phone, we just moved in too. The phone company takes forever. Here's the phone, help yourself to a drink, I'm going to get Josh." Michael minces out of the room.

Spike waits until he is out of sight before sprinting to the fridge for a drink to put the potion in. He finds a can of soda and quickly mixes the two. Giles told him it would only deactivate the chip for one hour. As he waits for the wanker to show he contemplates what to do about Michael. Xander told him this Michael wasn't home and therefore wasn't a part of the rape. If he didn't think Xander would get upset he would rip them both apart. But if the other man was, argh, innocent... Spike hears voices and sits back down. He is ready for his first sight of Josh.

"Michael! I am sure he is really hot but you don't have to drag me." He catches sight of Spike at the same moment Spike sees him.

"You arse wipe, how can you rape a 19 year old boy!" Spike is abruptly in game face and Michael faints dead away. Right, well that takes care of one problem.

"Wow, I hope your voice is as sexy as your-Oh My God." Josh backs up rapidly. He's such a nice guy he ignores his passed out lover. "Whoa man, I didn't rape anyone. I don't have to take it, its given to me. Your boyfriend must have just wanted a taste of the Josh man."

"You plonker, even in England no means no. I'll taste you all right!" Spike leaps at Josh, flashing his fangs. Josh screams like a girl as Spike drinks. He's not even trying to make it painless. Spike's first taste of live human in a year leaves him feeling nothing but disgust. This isn't about food. Its about causing this pathetic human as much pain as possible before he ends his miserable life. He intended a few choice tortures but Josh pissed him off. He can't even enjoy this meal. All he wants to do is drain this git and get back to his mate. Finally the heart stops and he throws the rapidly chilling body away from him in revulsion. Michael is still out so he steps on him as he goes into the kitchen. The guy may not have been home but he should have known how sick his lover was. The man groans but wisely stays prone. Spike destroys the kitchen looking for booze. Josh left a nasty taste in his mouth. He snorts in disgust at the peach wine coolers but downs one and swipes another to take with him.

He tosses a, "Thanks for the booze mate, don't pick such a wanker next time, " and leaves. His Xander is waiting. He walks back to the Watcher's. He's sending out such powerful vibes that nothing dares bother him on the way. Giles meets him at the door.

"Well Spike? You might wipe your mouth before you go to him. There's a spot of blood in the corner." Giles motions to the corner of his own top lip.

"Right, right. Need to warm up some blood Watcher. Pillock left a nasty taste in my mouth. Made me mad and I drained him. Made it hurt though." Spike walks past Giles into the kitchen. He prepares a bag of blood and downs it without the customary look of disgust.

"Gah Rupes, even pig's blood is better than that bloke's flavor."

"I-I'm rather impressed Spike. You were chip free for an hour and yet all you did was avenge Xander. You could have gone anywhere, done anything. That's just bloody amazing." Giles looks at Spike, astounded.

"Right well I only had an hour. No time for vengeance and mayhem at the same time. Would've gone on a bloody tear if I had time." Spike smirks.

"Ah I see. Very well, then. Go see your-go see Xander. He ate some soup but won't relax unless his vampire is there. He mentioned something about petting?" Giles looks at the vampire with amusement.

"Whelp's gone barmy. I'll just go check on him." He starts walking nonchalantly then curses and races up the stairs-Giles' laughter following him.

"Really Spike, he's not a pet!"

"I know he's not a soddin' pet, " Spike mutters as he carefully pushes open the door. No startling Xander, never scare his luv.

"Pet, you awake? Spike's back..., " he curses softly as he approaches the bed. He can read tension in the boy's rigid posture and scents the despair. Soddin Hell, whelp thought he wasn't coming back! He abandons all attempts at calm and practically flies to the bed. He sits down carefully and stretches out behind his mate, trying to massage away the tension. His ears catch an extremely soft muttering from the form under his hands.

"Please come back Spike. I'll be good. I won't fight with doctors anymore. I'll do whatever you want. I won't make you mad, promise. Why did you leave? Was I bad? If I was bad I'll be good. You can touch my butt all you want. I won't cry, please come back!"

Spike is a vampire. A Master Vampire. Nothing a human says can possibly matter enough to make him feel guilty. What utter rot. He was feeling so low than an earthworm would have to look down to see him. When will he learn that emotions are so much more fragile than the shells that hold them.

"Luv, I'm here. You aren't bad. Never bad. You'll never have to see another doc again if you will just stop trembling and look at me. Please pet. Don't say please a lot whelp." Spike is desperate. Was revenge really worth coming back to this? He thought Xander was as broken as he could possibly get. How could someone shatter so much and ever become whole. For a long moment he was stuck in the bleakest despair. This is what being selfish wrought. Josh wasn't punished for Xander. That was for Spike and the Watcher. He should have gone through the regular human channels and never left his mate's side. Can he fix this? He has to.

"Pet, I was wrong. Never should've left you. Promised to stay put and I already bollixed that up. Never again. Listen up Xander, only gonna say this once. Never again. Won't leave." He pulls Xander closer to him and begins his favorite activity-pet the human. "Can't face the Watcher for a bit luv, " he chuckles, "Rupes said you complimented my petting technique. Wonder how long an embarrassed Mater Vamp can hide with his human before 'Dad' becomes suspicious?" He nearly cheers when the trembling boy turns over and burrows into his chest, giving a watery chuckle.

"Don't care Fangless. My vampire. You followed me home, finder's keepers. You really won't leave me again? Everyone leaves me. I don't know what I'd do if you left me alone again. Well, I can go to the bathroom by myself and you will need to eat-I'm not a walking blood bank. Do you promise?"

Spike smirks at the return of the Xander babble.

"Right luv, got it. No withdrawals. Suppose I can survive on the blue plate pig special. Word of a Master Vampire Pet. More important, word of William the Bloody mate. May have lost me bite but the word still means something." Spike gave a sigh of relief. He hadn't lost the most important thing in his unlife. Without his mate, and now was not the time to discuss that with him, he would be there to greet the sun. Or, shudder, maybe even go see the Poof. He is glad that isn't going to happen. He doesn't need a lecture from hair boy!

"Spike...my butt hurts." Xander's reply is filled with reluctance.

"Whelp, why didn't you tell the Watcher?" Spike sounds exasperated. Not that he has to help, but frustrated that Xander waited.

"Ew, my father figure touching my ass? No way! That is so not happening. Spike, how can I put this? I already told you I am tired of having people's hands up my ass. But of all the people I know, if I have to have someone do it, well...I want it to be you." Xander finishes quietly and snuggles back into his vampire's chest, hiding a red face.

Ever see William the Bloody so happy the ice around his heart melts? Okay, fine, when he was not killing or maiming. Ah, I didn't think so.

"You want ME to touch your arse mate?"

"Calm down Spike. I just need you to apply some cream. You so don't have to sound like groping me is your favorite pastime." Xander sounds a bit nervous. Spike doesn't have to sound so thrilled. Like its an honor or something.

"No need to be worried luv. I'll never touch you without permission. Just was happy you trust me that much. Love you, I do, never will hurt you." Spike wraps him arms around his Xander and runs his hands up and down his back. Xander briefly stiffens when he gets too close to his butt, but as soon as Spike feels it he avoids touching that low. He needs his mate to relax.

"Um, Fangless, this is nice but my butt still hurts. Can we take care of that then cuddle? Cuddling is of the good, when I'm not in pain." He squirms uncomfortably.

"Right pet, thought I would relax you first." Spike reaches behind him and gropes around until he feels something cool, smooth, and tube-shaped.

"I appreciate the thought Spike, really do. But sore butt's so not good."

Spike laughs, "Got it luv, pain first then fun stuff." He quickly pulls Xander's pants down far enough to apply the cream. Xander shakes a bit but then sighs in relief as the cream cools.

"You can touch my butt anytime Spike." Xander puddles back down, getting comfortable again. Spike smirks but actually manages to avoid any snarky comments. Cuddling with his mate has priority.

Spike is snuggly and curls around his human heater. He is content and will be happy if he never has to move.