I Didnt Want It!
A/N: This part includes what I believe a medical exam would be like for a male rape victim. If this is too tedious for you this part can be skipped. It is important for me personally to show that rape is not over after the act. I hope you all can bear with me and dont think this part sucks too bad. I cannot find any information so this exam is common sense; I apologize if I offend any real medical personnel in my pitiful attempt to recreate it. I realize Xander seems somewhat childlike but this, too, is a reality. The feeling of wanting to go back to a time when your Mom could kiss your boo-boos is valid. Sad isnt it? This is for all those victims out there. May it give you some peace. Also for my purposes Xander is 19. Barely a teen and barely an adult. And on the Hellmouth you are a minor till 21. Sorry, too hard to change it now. lol
Part Six
Giles sits down in a chair by the bed and writes in his journal while he waits for the doctor. He has settled into a light doze himself by the time all three are rudely awakened by the doorbell.
"Whats going on? Hey, how did Spike get in here?" Xander yawned sleepily then cuddled closer to his vampire. He wasnt awake enough to remember he was mad at Spike. Giles motioned for Spike to stay put. He would answer the door.
"Give him a few more minutes, Spike. I need to talk to the doctor anyway." Giles exited the room, quietly shutting the door behind him. Once out of earshot he raced down the stairs quicker than dignity normally allowed, but he didnt want the doorbell to wake Xander again. Maybe dignity wasnt watching. Giles opened the door cautiously even though he had looked out the peephole and confirmed his visitor. This was the Hellmouth after all. He ushered the man inside and gestured for him to take a seat.
"Thank you for coming, Daniel. I know this is not the normal type of house call. I just felt this person would feel more comfortable here than at your clinic. You do have everything you need? I dont want you to have to traumatize him twice if you forgot something and have to leave to get it. My apologies, that was rather stupid. I am sure you know what you are doing. You have to know, he is a minor and not actually my son. That wont be a problem will it?" Giles finished nervously. He has handled monsters of all descriptions but it is the human monster that still unnerves him.
"Relax, Rupert, I know this isnt legal and my results wont hold up in court. You mentioned you werent pressing charges. Since I know you, Im going to assume you are handling this personally and not ask any more. They cant get anything out of me if I dont know anything. Now lets get this over with. You mentioned the young man was a tad reluctant. I brought along a tranquilizer in case its needed." The doctor isnt finished when Giles interrupts.
"I hardly think sedating a rape victim just so hes unconscious when you examine his arse is necessary!" Giles was upset with a misconception, perhaps he will give the man time to explain before he rips his head off.
"Rupert! Its a trank, it will just relax him a little, not make him paralyzed and comatose. He will still know whats going on, he will just feel removed from the reality a little bit. Finally, I said I have it in case its needed, this could be a moot point. Now can we get on with this? I am no more fond of these than I am sure your young man is," Daniel finished with a snap of his over-full doctors bag and gestured for Giles to lead the way.
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Sp-pike? I know Im supposed to be mad at you, but can I be scared, get cuddled right now, then be mad later? I guess I shouldnt be so mad since I dont have to explain the whole awkward thing to Giles after all. Do I still have to see a doctor?""Luv, you can be as scared as you please. Told you Im staying put and Ill be here if youre mad or not. Pet, Giles phoned a bloke he knows and the doctor is here now." He stops to address the sudden panic in Xanders eyes.
"Now? Hes here?! But why? Is he gonna take me to his clinic? But you and the G-Man could have driven me. Why is he here!?" Xander is distraught, he thought he would have time to talk his way out of this.
"Shhh pet, the Watcher wanted to get it over with and thought you would feel better at his house rather than a cold exam room. Dont you want to get it over with and done, luv?" Spike smoothes his hand over Xanders hair. This petting thing is getting addicting.
"No, Spike, I just want my life to go back to the way it was. And I want to have a choice again of who touches my ass! But since neither of those seem to be an option you will excuse me for wanting to throw a very childish tantrum!!!" Xander finishes with a near scream.
The door opens just in time for Giles and the newcomer to hear the last. Giles wonders if he should have been so quick to refuse the tranquilizer.
"Well, young man, I have never met anyone that had more right to throw one. If it will make you feel better go right ahead." The doctors sudden proclamation startles the other three in the room. Giles finally recovers enough to approach Xander.
"Xander... I wasnt going to mention this but I am thinking you need the option. Daniel brought a tranquilizer. You will be able to move and be cognizant of everything going on around you but will feel less a part of it. Its up to you son. I was very sure it was not necessary, but if you need it please dont hesitate to take it." Giles finished and sat down beside Xander. Xander looked helplessly at Spike. He didnt know what to do. He was terrified but he wasnt sure being drugged was a good thing.
"Spike, I cant do this. I just cant. Please dont make me." Xander bursts
into manly tears again.
"Give us a mo, please, Watcher," Spike showed Giles and the doctor to the door. He caught a last worried look from Giles and they were gone.
"Okay, luv, take a few deep breaths and relax. You know this is going to happen. You know you will not be left alone." Spike starts the petting all over again. Who needs a tranquilizer when you have your very own vampire?
Xanders breathing was approaching hysteria when he started the deep breathing. Now hes scared, but not ready to bolt. Whatever happens, Spike will be there.
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Well, Rupert, you didnt warn me about THAT!""Warn you about what, Daniel?"
"Warn me that William the Bloody was the mate of your boy."
"Xander is not Spikes mate. Yes, I admit I did notice he loves him but mates?"
Daniel shrugs, "So do you suppose he can calm him down? I really dont want the vampire attacking me if your Xander gets hysterical again. Not that I am saying the boy is over-reacting. I just dont want to get bitten tonight."
"No worry there, Daniel. Spike has a chip, he cant harm humans. I do wish he would hurry up and tell us its okay to come in." Giles looks up the stairs wearily, willing the door to open.
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Spike notices Xanders breathing ease and sighs in relief. Maybe its time to get the other two men.
"All right, luv, its time. Keep taking deep breaths. You still want me to tell
you if you get the shot?" Spike never stopped petting his human.
"I-I dont know. I just want to pull the covers over my head and pretend Im not here. I just dont think I can do this." Xanders voice is full of pain and terror but he trusts Spike.
"Got it, pet, I dont think you can do this without it. Gonna go tell the doc." Spike gets up to leave and is grabbed by Xander.
"Dont leave me, please!" Xander is sobbing once again. Spike curses and drags the unhappy boy with him.
Giles looks up at the sound of a door opening and catches sight of a
white-faced Xander behind Spike.
"Right then, lets do it."
Daniel grabs his bag and follows Giles up the stairs.
"Whelps right scared, hes gonna need the stuff." Xander nods but doesnt say anything.
"Very well, I understand." Daniel gets a pre-filled syringe out of his bag.
"Roll up his sleeve please. Rupert, why dont you sit in the chair by the bed and hold his other hand? There, you can never have too much support young man. I hope you realize how great these friends of yours are. Ive known Rupert for years and I have heard of the reputation of William the Bloody." He keeps Xander occupied with inane chatter and the youth is too distracted to feel the pinprick when it comes.
"All done, now lay back, hold your vampire, and think calm thoughts. This is fairly fast-acting. You might feel a bit woozy but it shouldnt knock you out." He catches the worried look. "Hey, if you go to sleep well wait. I wont touch you while you are out, unless you would prefer-"
Quick head shake.
"I didnt think so." He gives Xander a friendly smile and sits down in a chair by Giles. He watches as Spike gathers up the boy and strokes his hair in a motion reminiscent of petting. Well, whatever works. Xander grows increasingly limp. Daniel is briefly worried he might go to sleep after all but his eyes remain open. Spike hears Xanders heartbeat slow as much as its going to.
"Pet, you still with us?" Xander takes such a long time nodding they wonder if he really moved. "Ready, luv?" Xander just blinks blankly and Spike snorts. "Right, not ready, never ready, got that. Okay doc, do your stuff."
Daniel is not about to undress Xander with Spike in the room. He likes his arms attached. He briefly contemplates asking Rupert, but the request dies unsaid when he sees him in the same chair, clutching Xanders hand like a lifeline.
"Okay, Spike is it? I need you to undress him completely. I dont think hes
capable of that right now." Daniel says this prepared to lose his life if the
vampire goes off on him. Spike just quietly complies. He will do nothing to
upset Xander.
Daniel gulps, "Now roll him on his stomach please." He puts his gloves on and applies a bit of K-Y Jelly to his index finger. He lays the other hand on
Xanders back.
"Xander, I am going to examine you now. It will feel a bit uncomfortable but it shouldnt hurt. You let us know immediately if it does." The skin under his hand rippled a little but other than that shiver he didnt protest. "Spike, take his other hand. If he squeezes you let me know."
Spike simply nods in acknowledgment. Daniel takes a deep breath and gently parts Xanders butt cheeks. First he checks for any tears on the anus itself. He feels lucky to only find a few and none that need stitches. The youth is sobbing but showing no signs of resistance. Its as he said, Xander is fully conscious, just really relaxed. One more deep breath later he inserts the finger completely in the tiny hole. Xanders breath hitches briefly then he continues sobbing. Daniel strokes his back gently.
"Almost done with the bad part, just hang in there."
Xander nods and buries his face in the pillow. Daniel twists the finger
completely around to check the walls of the rectum and Xander squirms.
"Does that hurt, Xander?"
Head shake.
"Youre sure?"
More head shakes.
"No pain receptors in here so the pain you are not feeling is from those little tears. Good, Im all done with the bad parts."
Xander looks up incredulous.
"I told you I didnt like that part either. Ready to finish?"
Xander nods and Daniel begins a painstaking head to toe search for injuries. It seems to take forever and Giles falls asleep in his chair. Xander soon follows. Finally he is done and asks Spike to draw Xander a bath. While Spike is gone he quickly draws a tube of blood to test and notes approvingly that the youth is so tired he doesnt even twitch at being poked once again. Spike enters the room once again and Daniel asks him a curious question.
"Now Spike, I could take this blood back to my lab and process it in a couple of days but I understand you can tell me if there is anything in it just by tasting it? If you do this will it harm you if there is anything wrong?"
Spike looks up astonished.
"Never been used for that purpose, mate, but it should work. Wouldnt hurt me." Daniel gives him the vial and Spike downs it. The flavors of innocence mixed with terror and despair make Spike want to spit it right back out. That used to be his favorite taste. Not when its Xanders.
"Bloods fine, doc." Spike surreptitiously wipes his mouth with the sheet on the bed. Good thing Giles is still asleep.
"Okay, the bad news. He has several small tears in his anal ring. They will
heal but hes gonna be sore for a bit. I have some cream for that and he will probably need help applying it. The good news is he was right about the person not completing the penetration. There is very little damage and what there is will heal on its own. I will leave the cream with you along with some herbs you can sprinkle in his bath water. I would advise a normal diet but he should avoid the spicy stuff for a week. No showers, bathing only. I will be back to check on him next week." Daniel leaves the instructions and the job of bathing a dozing Xander with Spike.
The vampire shrugs, picks up his precious human, and heads into the bathroom. Sitting on the toilet he takes his Docs off and steps fully clothed into the bath. He doesnt want to terrify Xander when he wakes up in a bathtub with a naked male vampire. Sprinkling the medicine in the water he settles Xander against his chest and falls asleep with his nose buried in his mates hair. He has time for one brief moment of shock at that last thought and then he is asleep too.
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